I must be crazy. I worked on 50 pages last night, reading and editing. I got through it all and went to bed at a reasonable hour (for me anyways). I lay in bed and thought – that whole scene needs reworking. Over and over in my mind it rumbled and I knew it had to be redone. For 15 minutes I lay there thinking about how it should be rearranged – the pieces were mostly good but they were in the wrong order.
Could my brain shut down and let me sleep after I made the decision? Oh heck no. I got up at 11:30 last night to redo part of the scene – did I mention this is 50 pages I’d worked on for 3 hours?
I worked for 45 minutes rewriting and rearranging. I got several pages redone and moved around. To be perfectly honest, if I didn’t have a day job I wouldn’t have quit working last night but I had to get up this morning.
It is times like this where I wish I could be doing this full time. If I made enough money to cover my current income and our insurance needs then I would quit working my day job. I’d write full time and hopefully sell lots of books and articles.
Sadly I am not making enough writing so I will continue to go with little sleep and a bit of frustration. The thing is I love the challenge. I knew this story needed an overhaul and as I’m doing it – I am LOVING it. It’s a challenge to let go of the ideas I had before and allow new ones to take their place. It’s fun to see how the story will wrap around itself differently with this tweak or that change.
The words tumble and almost trip over themselves to get on my paper. It is amazingly enjoyable for me to struggle through this work. Hopefully when I’m done there is a story that others will want to read and enjoy.