Last week I had my first job interview in about five years. It was an interesting day for me because I wasn’t nervous at all until I got in the car to drive from my house to the interview. I’d worked all day with barely a thought about it. Then on the way to the interview I was suddenly slammed with doubt and insecurity concerning the entire process.
I called my daughter and she was a little help but I was pretty nervous when I walked into the building. I had a long interview – about an hour – but to be honest I couldn’t tell you how good I did. I walked away thinking okay that wasn’t horrible. However, since then I’ve done nothing but think about how I could have said something better or did I come off this way or that way. I know I’m over thinking the entire thing yet I can’t seem to let it go.
I should hear about the job this week. My guess is that I didn’t get it but that could be stemming from my over thinking the whole process. I’m normally a very confident person so for me to be so unsure is annoying and frustrating. Perhaps part of this is because I don’t have any control on the outcome so I just have to wait and see. My part in the process is done and I can’t go back to change anything. I just have to take a deep breath and hope that I get the job.
I’ve got my fingers crossed…..