Moments in Nature in Paperback!

My first poetry book is now available in paperback.  I’m very excited about this one because it is an expression of how nature affects me on a deeper level.

Nature inspires me.  I watch it wash over all of us and how we all react to it.  It doesn’t matter whether it is the season or the daily weather.  It affects people’s moods and attitude towards everything.  It is awe inspiring and moves me regularly to put into words the affect it has on me.

In reading my poetry, you will find some rhyming poems but not too often.  Generally they are more free form and less structured.  I do like Haiku format which there are a few in this book.  Haiku is an ironic poem with a set format.  They are fun – at least I think so.

The cover for this book was shot by Suzanne Inez Jaillet-Isham.  It is from one of her hiking trips down into the Grand Canyon.  When she shares her photography, I get to go to places I wouldn’t normally be able to go.  I truly appreciate her skills as a photographer.  More of her work is on display on YouTube, just search for LilyAZ to see more of her work.

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It Was Worth the Wait

After doing and redoing Moon Affirmations, it is finally available in paperback!  Late last night the final review of the file was complete and now this morning it is available on! 

I think it looks beautiful!  I’m very proud of this meditation book.  It is simple and easy to do but at the same time can bring some pretty deep results.  I’m deeply moved by the moon energy and during the full moon I feel overloaded with all the energy and during the dark of the moon I feel peaceful. 

The artwork inside is magnificent.  TJ did a wonderful job capturing the feeling of the meditations.  The simple drawings match the affirmations and meditations wonderfully.  Additionally, Suzanne took a beautiful photo for me of the moon.  It was exactly has I’ve envisioned for several years. 

I’m proud of this book.  Laura and I lay on the ground at a county park near my home.  We talked about how the moon’s energy affected people and lives.  The idea popped for me and she encouraged me to write and develop this book. 

Several publishers have nibbled at this manuscript over the years.  Several have expressed an interest in the concept and the manuscript but none followed through.  It is here – published in both ebook and paper format. 

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Yesterday was exceedingly productive.  Secret Past is now available in e-book, large print paperback, and paperback.  I’m very proud of it and am thrilled that I’ve sold to people other than my family. 
In addition to getting the final version of Secret Past out into the world yesterday, I worked on budget and paid bills, clipped coupons, crocheted on a graduation gift, and read another fun book.  It was a full and busy day.  I got home from work early and was able to organize a bunch of stuff.  I do have a sloppy pile of paperwork that needs to be filed.  I hate filing but I will try to get that done today. 
Today I’ll be working on a grocery list and putting coupons together.  Ken is going to do the shopping this week.  I will be working on production of my next book.  This one is more complicated because it has amazing drawings to be included by TJ Jahns.  The drawings are simple but beautiful, reminiscent of Shel Silverstein. 
Unfortunately I woke up aching so I’m probably not going to be able to sit on the computer for long today.  I’ll be making the most of my time here.  Then it will be back to crocheting.  Last night while I crocheted, I watched Mansfield Park and Elementary.  Both were good and different.  I’ll probably do something like that today. 
One of the things I did yesterday was to put all my guides for self-publishing into a binder so today while I work I’ll be able to easily pull out the binder and follow each step.  It’s nice to have a handy reference right there.  I know what needs to be done for most of it but I can do a quick read just to make sure.  I’ve also got my project spreadsheet which helps me keep track of where I’m at with each project. 
It is the weekend and I’m supposed to be relaxing. In a lot of ways this is me relaxing.  Those who know me can stop laughing, I like to be busy and I like to make progress.  I don’t have to have a perfect house or fancy clothes or stuff like that.  I do have to write and crochet.  It seems along with the writing I also have to keep moving forward with projects which means production of books.  I think I’d lose my mind if I didn’t have these two things.  Crocheting keeps my hands busy and writing keeps my mind busy – or maybe it focuses my busy mind.  Either way, I’m a better person – happier, more content, and easier to live with – if I’m busy with these projects.
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Narrative – Technology Driven Society and How it Changes Our Story

“It’s a Hole in the Ground!”
Technology is often cursed and condemned as being bad, evil, and will eventually bring about the end of the world.  However, technology moves our culture forward and changes our worldview.  As we expand and change our worldview, the narratives we relate to change in accordance to the new information. To illustrate this, I’ll compare descriptions of the Grand Canyon with an array of pictures to show the progression of society’s understanding of the natural wonder. 


If your only knowledge of a place is someone’s description – verbal or textual, you have limited understanding of the location.  The first quote gives a very different picture from the subsequent two descriptions
“It [the Grand Canyon] looks like the Gates of Hell. The region … is, of course, altogether valueless. Ours has been the first and will undoubtedly be the last, party of whites to visit the locality. It seems intended by nature that the Colorado River along the greater portion of its lonely and majestic way, shall be forever unvisited and undisturbed.”
Joseph Christmas Ives, 1858 his journal, Prampolini Gaetano, Pinazzi, The Shade of the Saguaro / La sombra del saguaro.  Essays on the Literary Cultures of the American Southwest, pg 449
“I have heard rumors of visitors who were disappointed. The same people will be disappointed at the Day of Judgment. In fact, the Grand Canyon is a sort of landscape Day of Judgment. It is not a show place, a beauty spot, but a revelation. The Colorado River, which is powerful, turbulent and so thick with silt that it is like a saw, made it with the help of the erosive forces of rain, frost, and wind, and some strange geological accidents; and all these together have been hard at work on it for the last 7 or 8 million years. It is the largest of the 18 canyons of the Colorado River, is over 200 miles long, has an average width of 12 miles and is a good mild deep. It is the world’s supreme example of erosion. But this is not what it really is. It is, I repeat, a revelation. The Colorado River made it, but you feel when you are there that God gave the Colorado River its instructions. It is all Beethoven’s nine symphonies in stone and magic light. Even to remember that it is still there lifts up the heart. If I were an American, I should make my remembrance of it the final test of men, art, and policies. I should ask myself: Is this good enough to exist in the same country as the Canyon? How would I feel about this man, this kind of art, these political measures, if I were near that rim? Every member or officer of the Federal Government ought to remind himself, with triumphant pride, that he is on the staff of the Grand Canyon.”
J B Priestly, 1937, Midnight on the Desert,

Joan Stone, description of visit to Grand Canyon, 1949
These three descriptions are very different.  One describes the location as being equivalent to hell while the other two expound on the beauty of the location.  Yet they describe the same location.  The narrative from the first would be of a fearful and desolate place; while the narrative from the other two portrays a much different locale.  None of these adequately describe the avariety of landscape or the emotions evoked on seeing the Grand Canyon.
Pictures – sketched or photos taken with cameras – change the way we see the canyon because there is a representation that comes nearer to representing the natural wonder.
The next progression is to have sketches, drawings, or paintings of the regions.  These next two pictures are of sketches and a map of the region.  They illustrate the canyon in simple ways while adding to the text above.  

This 1858 hand-colored map, titled “Rio Colorado of the West,” is one of the earliest visual representations of the Grand Canyon area. It was prepared by John Strong Newberry, M.D., a geologist with the expedition led by Lieutenant Joseph C. Ives. It was published in 1861 by the U.S. Government Printing Office in the Report Upon the Colorado River of the West, Explored in 1857 and 1858 by Lieutenant Joseph C. Ives, Corps of Topographical Engineers, Under the Direction of the Office of Explorations and Surveys, A.A. Humphreys, Captain Topographical Engineers, In Charge.  Photo: Digital image courtesy of Cartography Associates, David Rumsey Historical Map Collection.

If you read one of the descriptions of the canyon and then saw the sketches above it would put form to the words you would have read.  Going from the text to the picture changes a person’s comprehension of what the Grand Canyon is.  While this must have taken a great deal of time and effort, it is a limited view of the Grand Canyon.  It certainly gives an impression of the expanse of the canyon but doesn’t illustrate the range of color or the immenseness of the canyon.  Leaping forward 136 years and several evolutions in technology, the pictures by Suzanne add comprehension and layers of narrative.  The link below shows the same type of view as the sketch from 1880 but adds layers.

Suzanne Inez Jaillet-Isham (Lily), Rest stop South Kaibab Trail, 2010
Click on this video link to see an expanse of the Grand Canyon similar to the sketches above:
Suzanne Inez Jaillet-Isham (Lily), 2008
The video shows a section of the Grand Canyon and allows you to see the real colors, gives a deeper perspective and depth than the sketches above.  The sketches above seem surreal compared with the video.  The change in technology changes the perspective of the viewer.  With the change of perspective, the narrative changes.  Instead of seeming unreal, the canyon now seems real.  You can feel the hard rock, depth, and harshness of the environment.  When compared to the written description, the sketch offers new layers for the narrative by providing a visual cue.  The video expands on those layers, adding in motion, depth, and more texture.
Early photos showed more of the Grand Canyon to a wider range of people.  However, the quality of the photo is grainy and lacks color.

Even 50 years later, technology had advanced enough for a woman on her honeymoon to carry a camera and take pictures she thought would be once in a lifetime pictures.  The photo below is still grainy and shows no color but instead of lugging along a huge camera, this was taken with a small camera.  It does give more depth than the sketches but doesn’t show the colors of the landscape:
Joan Stone, 1949, taken from the rim of the Grand Canyon
More than 60 years later, the picture below was taken with a digital camera.  The advances in technology adds layers to the narrative of the Grand Canyon.  
Suzanne Inez Jaillet-Isham (Lily), Bottom of Havasu Falls, October 2012

 Suzanne Inez Jaillet-Isham (Lily), Havasu Falls, October 2012
Water and plant life are visible in the black and white photos but the recent photos add the color of the area.  Additionally the black and white photos show the high walls and valley aspect but not the diversity of the landscape which the color photos illustrates.
Unknown photographer, 1920, Indian Garden on the Bright Angel Trail, Grand Canyon,*/field/all/mode/all/conn/and/cosuppress/

Suzanne Inez Jaillet-Isham (Lily), Indian Gardens on Bright Angel Trail

Technology advances and our knowledge of the area improves and increases.  We can see more remote locations as cameras get smaller and more portable.  Also quality of the photo improves as it becomes safer and easier to work in this medium.  As we discover more of a region we hadn’t known before, it sparks the imagination and shifts the narrative we tell ourselves and how we talk about life in general. 
Technology may be cursed as it becomes available but ultimately it helps us advance our narrative about the world around us.  In some cases, it disproves theories and in other cases – like discussed above – it adds layer of understanding and accessibility.  
Note – For a fair comparison I tried to keep the pictures the same size but clarity of picture played a large part in choosing the size of the picture.  In some cases this meant the pictures were not equal in size.  The intent is to show the best quality picture not to give preference to one picture or another.