No Alarm!

Happy 4th of July!  My one desire for today was to not set my alarm and just wake up naturally to see if I could get more sleep.  I worked on writing until 12:30 and went to bed.  This morning I woke up at 7:00.  I did go back to sleep and doze until 8:00 and lay in bed contemplating whether I wanted to get up until about 8:15. 
It was nice to wake up more naturally than to a demanding alarm clock.  However, I didn’t really get more sleep.  Apparently my body says 6 – 7 hours is enough.  This is okay for me it means I’m up to work on writing for a bit before we dive into the list of stuff that has to get done. 
The girls are flying in tomorrow.  It will be wonderful to see them in person.  There are a lot of things planned for when they are back.  Hopefully we can get them all in and still have some of those wonderful family moments.

Tomorrow I’m going to have time alone in my house as Ken has to work and Vicki is going to the library for her volunteering.  I’ll be setting the alarm so I can maximize the time I have alone.  For the time the girls are here I’ll have to see if there might be a day or two I can give the alarm a day off again.  Once the girls go back to Georgia I still have five days off but I think I’ll be making the most of the time by writing as much as possible so more likely to set the alarm.  I enjoy waking up on my own much more than I do waking up to an alarm.  Unfortunately, that doesn’t happen often.

Five More Work Days!!

Five more days!  Yet another countdown for me, I have five more work days to get through and then I will have off until the 15th.  This is very exciting for a number of reasons.  Vacation is always good.  Holiday pay is always good.  The two girls coming from Georgia is wonderful.  Time off is great.

One of my goals for this next vacation is to not set the alarm clock for at least two days.  I’ll probably do that at the beginning of the vacation because as I get closer to going back to work I have to work back into my normal routine. 
Fourth of July we will probably spend getting ready for the girls’ visit.  Then they come on the 5thand will be here until the 10th.  After that I’ll be in vacation mode.  This means I hope that I’ll be writing a lot.  My goal is to get several chapters done in my one novel.  I also want to start editing the first book. 
In addition to the writing, I would like to pull out my list of publishers and work on doing some submissions.  I haven’t done any in a while.  I have two articles ready for one publication and hope to meet the deadline on them.  After that I need to update my work list spreadsheet and clear out my emails of the rejections.  Then I have to look at my spreadsheet to see what old submissions I have that I haven’t gotten a response on. 
Hopefully in the cleaning and getting ready portion of the vacation I’ll have time to clean my office a bit so it is more organized and less chaotic.  If I get that done it makes it much easier to do the submissions.

Halfway

I’m halfway through my vacation and enjoying it thoroughly.  I have made progress on the two stories I wanted to and I’ve gotten Stephanie’s afghan down to a row and half left.  For the rest of the week I’m hoping to add more to my writing time and finish off her afghan. 

I also have been struggling with sleep.  Not that I can’t sleep but that I’m sleeping odd hours.  I know that may not be a problem for most people – it is all part of being on vacation right?  Well for me when I get out of habit on my sleep I struggle with getting back into cycle.  The rest of the week I’m going to try to go to bed about midnight (instead of 2 am) and get up by 7 – 8 in the morning.  That way when I go back to work next week, I can at least be close to what a normal schedule should be. 
I was struggling with my one story.  I’m at a point where there needs to be a lot of battling and fight scenes except I don’t want the book to be all about the battles.  I want it to be a mixture of battles and struggle with peaceful negotiations.  This is hard to describe without going into lengthy detail about the story.  I was stuck in this spot where one of the main characters was in yet another battle but I didn’t want it to be a battle.  I was struggling with what to do with the scene and the character.  What he is doing is vital to the story so I can’t pull him out of the situation.  Being the all seeing author, I introduced a new character who changed the way the scene played out.  It worked out well.  Now I just have to do a couple more chapters to somewhat conclude this leg and go back to one of the other main characters who is busy doing more diplomatic things.  Progress and a solution – I say that is a good day of writing!

Full Sentences

What does it mean when my daughter keeps telling me that she needs full sentences to know that I’m actually paying attention to what she is saying?  Okay well it means I’m either not overly awake or I’m busy writing.  In this case I’m busy writing.

Working on one of my manuscripts today, I was busy working and could hear Vicki talking to me.  Some part of me registered what she was saying but mostly I was involved in the story I was working on.  My brain acknowledged hearing her but didn’t elicit an appropriate response to her.  This resulted in her saying “Mom, full sentences so I know you are hearing me.”
This is amusing because mostly in my head I was saying “SSSHHHH I’m writing.  Stop bothering me because I’m busy writing.”  There may have been stronger language in my head as well.  The good thing is I didn’t say anything out loud. 
I did eventually give her grief for bugging me while I was writing.  I was working on a chapter.  I finished a full chapter today on a story.  This is exciting for me as it was a bit of a struggle. 
I am working on two stories right now.  The first one is the long manuscript I am separating into three or four novels.  That is moving along nicely.  I’m reviewing and rereading, looking more for obvious stand out errors and trying to determine where to split the book up.  The second project is a start I made for what I thought would be a short story but now I feel like it will be a novel or novella.  I finished the first chapter (the start of the story) a few days ago.  Today I wrote the full second chapter. 
The interesting thing is I have this dual in my head.  I’m dreaming about both stories.  They are mixing in my head and crossing over each other.  There is a third one that keeps niggling away at me but really I’m trying to keep the chaos to a minimal level. 
While I’m on vacation I’m positive I’ll hear more of these “full sentences” statements from her.  She will tease me and harass me as I work on writing.  I admit that if she weren’t around I would probably not eat all day and be surprised when Ken came home. 

Stacation

This week I’m on a stacation as everyone is calling it now.  I’m not going in to work but hanging out at home.  Over the weekend I got some more of Stephanie’s afghan done.  I’m down to about two and a half rows.  One of my goals this week is to finish it. 

I’ve already written one article and found another that I want to revise for submission to a publication.  Plus I’ve been working on editing my manuscript.  I’m very close to where I think the second book will end.  I think just a few more chapters. 

Last night (I guess I should say this morning) I went to bed just before two because I was working on the editing.  I set my alarm for six hours.  When it went off I reset it for an hour later because I woke up with a headache and it was raining.  I love to sleep in the rain, it is very soothing and calming for me.

Sasha started whining and meowing outside my door after the alarm went off the second time.  Apparently she thought I’d slept enough.  When I finally got up she joined me in the bathroom for her morning pet (the second time as I was up at 6:30).  She is spoiled. 

Today I was going to work on my books but I think instead I’m going to work on writing.  I need a shower at some point- probably after Vicki is up.  I’ll make the most of the quiet time I get until she gets up. 

The exciting events of the day will be writing and maybe movie watching in order to work on Stephanie’s afghan.  It may sound boring to a lot of people but I’m quite excited to have the down time to do what I want, to sleep as I please, and to just be without demands on me.

Hiding Out

I’ve been hiding out for the last month.  School ended and I got two A’s in my classes. Yeah!!  But after I was so stressed out I retreated into escapism.  I’ve been watching tv, playing facebook games, reading and crocheting.  I just needed some down time from everything. 

In the last week I’ve started to do other things as well.  I’m back to writing and working on projects that I would LOVE to finish over the summer.  I went back into one project and realized it was 580 pages (double spaced) total of about 170,000 words.  I recently read that the average novel is about 64,000 words.  This means I have nearly three novels in this one project.  I’ve been rereading the first part and falling in love with the project all over again.  I’m trying to find a good cut off point so I can start working on completing the first novel and send it out to the world of publishers.  At the same time I want to keep working on the end of the story.  Rereading it helps refresh my memory of where I started and where I’m going.  I was thinking I would work on a couple of projects like this over the summer but it might be too much to do all of that. 
On the creative side of this though is that I may find myself drawn to a different story (there are currently three or four bouncing around in my head) and may want to work on something else.  The one thing I need to stop doing is staying up till one or two in the morning writing or playing on the computer. 
I have a week off coming up.  I’m looking forward to that.  I’d like to get my books cataloged and organized.  I’d also like to get my craft room organized so it is less junk room and more craft room.  Vicki will be gone volunteering for two days so I’ll have the house to myself on those days.  I am hoping to make those writing days.  I also want to see if I can get Stephanie’s afghan finished.  I’m down to like four and a half rows.  I think this will mean that I watch DVDs for a day (or more) to try to get it done.  I’m finishing up a smaller project right now and then I’ll go back to the afghan. 
We got new living room furniture.  Our old furniture was falling apart and so we got new.  I’m enjoying it so far.  We got a sofa and loveseat with recliners.  This meant that we cleared out and rearranged the living room.  It looks so much better now.  The craft stuff for Vicki and I are in one corner tucked out of the way.  It will get messy again I’m sure as we craft regularly – Vicki crafts daily. 

Book Publishers Beware!

Governor Walker just repealed the Equal Pay Act.  This is criminal in my eyes.  Women already don’t make the same as men.  The excuses I hear for women earning less is that they are more likely to take time off for having babies.  My answer to that is who do you think put the baby there?  Another one is that women take more time off to care for children.  My answer to that is maybe men should step up then.  We have to carry the kid can’t men step up and do more of the day care. 

I’ll add a note here to all those fathers / uncles and other males who have stepped up to the plate and done what you should, these comments are not directed at you.  They are directed at the outdated and chauvinistic norms that women are held to now.

Recently I read an article about gender bias in the publishing arena – I am taking classes in this field so it only makes sense.  “Vida, an American organization supporting women in literary arts, has compiled statistics on the gender split in books coverage at publications including the London Review of Books, the Times Literary Supplement, the New Yorker, and the New York Times Book Review, each of which showed a substantial bias towards using male reviewers and covering male authors.”  http://www.guardian.co.uk/books/2012/mar/02/gender-bias-books-journalism-vida?INTCMP=SRCH

In most cases only about a third of the books or reviews were done by women.  I’d have no problem with this if women only made up a third of the offerings but they don’t.

Is publishing stuck in another era?  I’m beginning to think it might be.  I’ve been reading articles about lending ebooks, self publishing etc.  I’ve read naysayers proclaiming the move to electronic books will kill publishing.  I say publishing is going to kill themselves if they don’t move forward.  To me these seem to be symptoms of the same problem.  Publishers and publishing companies are not changing with the changes in the market, those offering product, and those buying product.

If the companies did move with the times they could embrace new technology as well as please the largest group of buyers (which by the way are women). 

The feminist in me rails against the injustice of the publishing industry being so backwards.  The realist in me just wants to work harder to be published and write reviews.  Perhaps I should use a less feminine name to write under.  Or better yet the publishing companies and reviewing papers should come into the 21stcentury and let the women have a voice too. 

More than this though, the publishing industry needs to get behind women and women’s issues in order to keep their audience.  Money is tight during these economic times that means people are being very selective about where their money goes.  Women are choosing how to spend their money.  If they can’t get ebooks or only hear a man’s opinion of a book they might be less likely to purchase books in any format. 

Publishers and other industry insiders should be standing up with women and fighting against actions like Walker’s.  They should also be cultivating good female reviewers.  Newspapers and other review publications should be encouraging more women to write reviews.  This will increase readership and level the playing field for all.  It is past time to embrace the changes in the industry and in our society.  It is time to come into the 21stcentury and recognize who your customers are and treat them better than you have been.

One Day Off Email

Yesterday I spent my time working on other things.  I checked my email in the morning and not again all day.  This morning I check my email and got slammed!  Apparently I’m either not allowed to take a day off or everyone was just really chatty yesterday. 

I’ve been enjoying my vacation.  I get up in the morning (usually later than normal) and work on the computer – writing, posting, editing, and a variety of other things.  Then in the afternoon I’ve been working on other projects.  It has been really relaxing.  I even took a nap yesterday.  I’ve even been crossing things off my to do list. 

Today though I’m hyper aware of the impending weekend and the amount of things I need to get done before I go back to work and school next week.  This morning I realized I have a lot of homework I need to get done before Monday.  I was up at 7 this morning and showered and to my desk by 7:45.  Sasha needed grandma time so I spent a bit of time cuddling and petting her.  What can I say Sasha is demanding and has claws… J

When I’m done with this blog I have to work on five lessons in a tutorial for a software program for one of my classes.  I have three stories to edit and write letters on.  I have several chapters to read.  I have a project to work on and a story to edit.  I have gotten one story edited to the point where I think it is done – I’ve sent it off to a couple of people to see what they think. 

Today will be a homework day – hopefully one that is productive.  This way I can play tomorrow (or do more homework) and not feel guilty about visiting with a friend.

Watch for the guest blog by Elizabeth Hazel tomorrow!!!

Writers Block – Barbara Ardinger

Because I’ve spoken to writers clubs on editing and appeared on two editing panels for the Greater Los Angeles Writers Society (GLAWS), the president of GLAWS and I had a conversation recently about doing a presentation on healing writers block. “It’s simple,” I told him. “You just start writing.”

I don’t think I’ve ever had writers block. Of course, there have been times in my life—like when I was a new mother or so besotted in love one time that I couldn’t think of anything else—that I haven’t been interested in writing, but even going through an M.A. in English and a Ph.D. in English, I never had much trouble with term papers, my thesis, or my dissertation. Like most writers, I suppose, I just walk around in the world with words spiraling in my head and building first lines of blogs, essays, stories, and poems. My challenge is finding time to write those lines down somewhere. Then I have to find more time to type them on my computer. Typing takes more time than thinking.

If you’re a writer, you write. If you think you can’t write or you’re afraid to get started—just write! Sit down with a pencil and paper or at your keyboard and start moving your hands and fingers. Although I love sports writer Red Smith’s famous quote—“There’s nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and open a vein”—writing is not quite that painful. I think it’s partly a matter of muscle memory. When I was learning to play the doumbek, I drummed the beledi rhythm (DOUM DOUM tek-a-tek-a DOUM tek-a-tek-a-tek—this is the most familiar belly-dance rhythm) over and over until my arms, hands, and fingers could do it without being directed by my mind. That’s muscle memory. I think learning to type on a QWERTY keyboard works about the same way. As I type this, I’m not thinking individual letters—A-S-I-T-Y-P-E-T-H-I-S, etc.—but whole words. My fingers know where to go. I don’t have to tell them. Of course, I’ve been typing for a long, long time. I learned to type on a standard, nonelectric typewriter. And I remember my grandfather’s typewriter, an ancient Remington with action so stiff you practically had to hit each key with a hammer. (His typewriter was like the one Hazel uses in Upstairs, Downstairs.) Electronic keyboards are certainly easier to use.

So to cure your writers block, start writing. I can hear you protesting. “I can’t think of anything to write!” “How can I write if my mind is empty?” “But what do I write?” “I’ll never be able to write again.” Phooey. Type the first pages of War and Peace if you want to, or the opening of a novel by Charles Dickens. Type the first page of the first Harry Potter book. Type the first verses of the Gospel of John. (In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.) Type nursery rhymes. Type a lyric by W.S. Gilbert or Bob Dylan, type a poem by Emily Dickinson, W.S. Merwin, or Philip Levine.

But DO NOT COPYAND PASTE. Don’t copy and paste for two good reasons. First, you really do not want to commit plagiarism. Second, and more important, copying and pasting does not build muscle memory in your fingers. The reason you’re typing is to get your fingers moving, which should get your mind moving again. If you’re reading what you’re typing, you may also learn something about good writing, how words can be put together. It never hurts to read good writing.

Get those fingers moving! Keep typing. I’m pretty sure you will not retype all of War and Peace, but the typing will bestir your mind. It’s like sparks will shoot out from Tolstoy or Rowling or Mother Goose and smash through the make-believe barriers in your mind. Words will crash together. Strings of words will start marching across your synapses. Words will tap dance over your corpus callosum. Ideas will sprout out of your right brain and start flowering in your neurons and spread like green grass down your arms. You might even get imaginary flowers on your fingernails. (Have I taken this metaphor too far? You get it, right?)

When your own ideas start coming, as they inevitably will, hit enter two or three times and start typing what’s coming out of your head and flowing down through your arms. Don’t judge it. Don’t edit it. Don’t worry yet about spelling or punctuation. Don’t even read it very closely. Just type. YOU’RE WRITING.

After you’ve got a paragraph or a stanza or two (or more), then you may want to slow down for a minute. Go back to the top of the page and delete what you copied. Now, if you want to, read what you wrote. Maybe it’s just rough draft. Rough drafts exist to be changed. Edit a little bit if you want to, correct obvious spelling and punctuation errors, make notes about where this is heading. Can you keep going? A writing teacher I once knew said the best way to keep going is to stop in the middle of a sentence. You’ll be irresistibly drawn to complete that sentence the next time you sit down to write.

Finally, it might be useful to distinguish between procrastination and writers block. This may be almost a Jesuitical distinction, but let’s assume it’s valid. When you’re procrastinating, you’re just waiting to write because you’ve got other things to do. Feed the cats. Vacuum the living room. Wash the car. Buy this week’s groceries. But keep this in mind—even if you’re procrastinating, you can’t stop your mind from writing. As you walk around in the world, let the words keep forming paragraphs and stanzas in your mind. And be sure to take the time to get them down on paper or your screen.
Visit Barbara’s site at:  www.barbaraardinger.com.
Facebook page for my new novel, Secret Lives: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Secret-Lives/140993335978461
Here’s a list of Barbara’s books:
Secret Lives (CreateSpace, 2011), a magical realism novel about grandmothers who do magic. http://www.amazon.com/Secret-Lives-Barbara-Ardinger/dp/1466251786/ref=sr_1_7?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1316117982&sr=1-7  Available in trade paperback and Kindle editions.
Pagan Every Day: Finding the Extraordinary in Our Ordinary Lives (Weiser, 2006) a daybook with essays about religious holidays of many religions, ancient and modern, plus numerous other topics (like Miss Piggy as The Goddess of Everything). http://www.amazon.com/Pagan-Every-Day-Extraordinary-Ordinary/dp/157863332X/ref=pd_sim_sbs_b_1  Trade paperback.
Quicksilver Moon (Three Moons Media, 2003), a far-right extremist preacher attacks a coven, a realistic novel … except for the vampire. http://www.amazon.com/Quicksilver-Moon-Barbara-Ardinger/dp/097251645X/ref=sr_1_sc_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1327858917&sr=1-1-spell  Trade paperback.
Finding New Goddesses: Reclaiming Playfulness in Our Spiritual Lives (ECW Press, 2003), a pun-filled parody of goddess encyclopedias.  http://www.amazon.com/Finding-New-Goddesses-Reclaiming-Playfulness/dp/1550225243/ref=pd_sim_sbs_b_3  Trade paperback.
Practicing the Presence of the Goddess (New World Library, 2000), a guide to feminist spirituality (Goddess 101). This book is a revision and reissue of Rituals & Celebrations (below). http://www.amazon.com/Practicing-Presence-Goddess-Everyday-Transform/dp/1577311736/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1327858847&sr=1-1  Now available in a Kindle edition!
Goddess Meditations (Llewellyn, 1998), the first book of meditations on goddesses, including chakra goddesses, to be published. Out of print, but still available on Amazon. http://www.amazon.com/Goddess-Meditations-Barbara-Ardinger/dp/1567180345/ref=pd_sim_sbs_b_2  Trade paperback.
A Woman’s Book of Rituals & Celebrations (New World Library, 1992; revised edition, 1995 http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_i_0_25?url=search-alias%3Dstripbooks&field-keywords=a+woman%27s+book+of+rituals+and+celebrations&sprefix=A+Woman%27s+book+of+rituals%2Cstripbooks%2C301  Available in hardcover, trade paperback, and now in a Kindle edition.
Seeing Solutions (Signet New Age Book, 1989), a book of guided meditations. Long out of print. http://www.amazon.com/Seeing-Solutions-Signet-B-Ardinger/dp/0451160096/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1327859017&sr=1-1  Paperback. (Don’t spend $80 for a new one!)

Annual Journal Entry

For the last five years, around my birthday I’ve written in my annual journal.  I have a daily journal I carry with me which gets all the daily chaos of my life.  I write in it when I feel the need to – the busier I get the less I write in it.  I try to get a page or two in regularly but it doesn’t always work. 

I read about a birthday journal five or six years ago and started one.  It is supposed to have remembrances from the last year, from my childhood, or other big picture thoughts. 

One year I wrote about as many of my memories as I could jam into a single sitting from my childhood.  Another year I wrote about the conflict in our family.  Last year was all about politics. 

This year, I will have to see what moves me.  There has been a lot going on in my life in the last year so I’ll have to see about the big picture. 

I know my birthday was nearly a month ago but mostly I haven’t had time to think about this deeply enough to do the entry.  In the last five years I’ve written in this journal anywhere from March to May.  If I can get it done, only three weeks after my birthday that will be pretty good.

Now I just have to figure out what big picture I want to write about – or if I want to tackle all of them….
Announcement!!!
Monday March 26, I’ll be posting a blog entry from Barbara Ardinger.  You may have clicked on her link on this page.  She is an incredible author and editor.  She is funny and articulate.  I think you will enjoy her posting.  Come back on Monday to see Barbara’s posting!!!